It doesn't look much different now, so I didn't bother taking another picture--there's just more of it. I'm probably about halfway through the bag of four ounces, so I still have a ton to go. No idea how much I'll get yardage-wise, but I'm looking forward to getting it finished and choosing a project for it.
I'm still knitting along on my Shetland Tea Shawl, and I just finished the 54th repeat (of 72) so it's slowing getting finished. I'm also halfway-done with the third clue of the Mystery Stole, so once I'm done with this clue I'll take a picture and post it. Neither project is terribly exciting as far as photographing it right now.
I'm normally a very upbeat person. My hubby will vouch for this. I've never had depression for more than a day or so, and it really sucks. I guess a lot of it is because I'm feeling trapped and like I'm an afterthought to pretty much everyone but my DH, sister, and parents (and those of you who commented).
Trapped, because while I love my children, right now it's extremely difficult to do anything with them in public. Unlike a lot of the people I know, I don't have free childcare on whom I can dump my children. My wonderful hubby is more than willing to stay home with the kids if I want to go do something without them, but I also want to spend time with him just as a couple. Our alternative is to pay someone to watch the kids, which gets expensive really quickly. The other day I dropped them off at the play place (hourly daycare, which they love and beg to go back to) and went to WalMart all by myself so that I didn't have to listen to whining about why we weren't going to purchase everything we see and want. They were there for around two hours and it was almost $20.
Obviously that's not something I can do frequently (especially since that's my month's craft budget). I cannot imagine having an entire day to myself, much less a weekend or more. I know I should cherish this time with my kids--and I do--but I feel like what I want to do comes last. Maybe I should go get the cheese out of the fridge to go with my whine.
My back/legs have been really bothering me, which means I've been doing something wrong. I've got two herniated discs in my back and when I lift something wrong or something that's too heavy, or I twist the wrong way, etc etc I get nasty pains down my legs and in my hips as the nerves are being pinched. Unfortunately I'm going on day four of this, and I still haven't figured out what I did wrong. I'm also frustrated by a lot of other things, none of which are in my control so I should just let them go.
The Fiber Christmas In July is coming up at the end of the month, and I'm still not sure I'm going to go. While it would be very cool, I don't know that I want that much temptation to spend money. I keep reading about these people loading up their credit cards and their car trunks at fleece fairs and other events, and while I'm envious, I'm also not going to let myself do that. [Don't get me wrong, I'm certainly not one bit better than any of those people, I just don't want more debt hanging over our heads.]
I desperately need to do better with my time management.
'K, that's quite enough from me right now. I promise to be more upbeat on my next post.